RAWR.
If I was a man, I would be kicking myself in the nuts right now.After saying that...
I just give in too easily. Maybe not give in so to say..like I just let my emotions out too easily. And then it just scares them away. I'm still new to this whole being single thing.
It's been over a week since Adam and I have broken up. 15 months and 25 days of what I like to call one of the greatest relationship I have ever been in. But what now? Now this word and world of "single" is odd. New. I guess I don't know how to even handle myself.
You can't just blab out I LIKE YOU. Thats a big no no? I like being upfront. But now he's just run away. I'm not so good at that whole playing games crap. I mean honestly I hate that.
Jeez, I'm such a man. Men like things upfront. Girls like to be stupid about it and play with their heads. And I shouldn't take things so litteraly. Damn. I'm bad at this game.
I donno. I can't read people that well. But it has never been a problem for this past year. I've had Adam. Always there. Saying he loves me. Telling him I love him.
Now it's gone. I don't regret a thing. It was an amazing relationship. He's a great guy.
But even though our relationship was one of the most unrealistic things, it lasted for a while.
A 5 hour drive or train ride to see him. For him to see me.
A college boy and a high school girl. How long can it last? Apparently almost 16 months.
Oh well. I'll get the hang of this thing sometime...right?
posted by Rachel @ 4:50 PM
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