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alone

i have so many friends.
ive been so blessed to meet the most amazing people ever
im blessed everyday for being alive

but ive never felt so alone (in a while)

like. its summer. and ive been bored out of my mind since kutz let me go home.

i can even talk to the boy that im in love with.
but i dont want to

i feel so down. i have so much to look foward too.
yet i cant smile about it.

im going to fucking israel.

yet i still have a frown on my face

i just want to run away and cry.

im scared.

im scared of being away from my parents for four months.
im scared of something happening while im gone.
im scared of failing.

im so scared.

but i know i have to take risks.


and i know i need this.

im so nervous. i dont feel secure right now.

posted by Rachel @ 7:26 PM Comments: 0

garg.

I know we all have bad habbits.

I really hope no one reads this.

But I get jealous so easily. So easily. I hate this. Why cant I just be okay with everything?
Why cant i have the self confidence that people think I have.

Jeez.

This sucks.

posted by Rachel @ 9:03 PM Comments: 0