All you feel like you have left are memories
I just gave one of my first, and one of my last hug to my only sister.She's gone. For now she's off to Flordia. I've been away from my sister many times. She wasn't home very often. But now, she's truely gone. Sometimes you don't know how to react. She brought on so much stress to my family. With the descions she made, with the people she upset. The boyfriends shes had. The one she has. That's why she's gone. I wouldn't be so upset if she was going to college, but she decided not to. Because of her boyfriend that she's in love with. And now, whats left of my house. Is something I would of never thought to be seen. My parents, in big tears. They tried so hard to stop her. But she is my sister. She's gone. Yet, I awaited this day. Even wanted it to come. And now its here, and now, what should I think? I want to cry but yet something inside is telling me to stay strong. For, if I cry, what will it bring? Instead I shall keep it deep inside me as I hear the others in my house sob like I've never herd before. For once in my life, I've never been the strong one, and now I'm going to have to be.
I try to explain this to someone I love, yet he won't understand. He will try. He will confort, but really do nothing. yet I still love him with all my heart.
All I can think of right now are the memories. Memories we had. From when my sister and I got along so well. I would hear all about her boyfriends and best friends. I learned from her. She taught me so much. Made me grow up. Sometimes what she did was crazy, but everytime she did more it taught me more. The way she lived was crazy, but I knew she probably lived up everyday. And i have no idea what thoughts are going through her head, but it must be something intense.
I don't know whats going to happen. But all I can do is have my trust in g-d and pray. Pray everday.
posted by Rachel @ 10:12 AM
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